pening kepala.

my momma is angry at me cause next saturday, my mom wants me to follow her to some baby full moon dinner thing but i don't feel like following. well, as you all know, i didn't go to church for like a month already and this coming saturday will be my day to go back to church and it's gonna be Eve's night. i'm so looking forward to it and my mom tells me that i will be going to the dinner with her. then i said i have church and she got all angry and say, next time we all go our own way blah blah blah, and i don't have to follow her anywhere anymore which is not a good thing cos she is angry. she will be angry at me forever. then she told me there will be another wedding dinner on the 22nd of November so i checked if it's a saturday on my phone. well, it's normal to check what day is it what. then, she scolded me about how people nowadays don't even care about going to other's dinner even invited and i was like i will go la, sheeesh. then she kept on going on about how i don't respect other people. so now i must make my choice. make momma happy and i will see photos of eve's night sadly, or make myself happy and let momma think that i mementingkan church so much that she dislikes church. this is dangerous. D:

the next thing is that i am thinking of changing my blog link but i can't think of a good one. this dream in the clouds thing is too long. i'm getting so annoyed to type it everytime i use another computer or give the link to someone. i thought of putting it as kiatelestrem.bs.com but it'll be so weird that the blog title and the link is the same. and kiatelestrem is a word that doesn't exist and it is hard to spell. or i change it to catpoop.bs.com la :D or dogpoop? lolololol. oh come on, gimme some ideas. i am currently starving  now and my dad is watching some food show, making me even more hungry. had accounts tuition with encik harri 3 days in a row. learnt a few things, only remember a couple of them. tomorrow's my accounts exam. wish me luck :)

mood:

amazing.

this is really good. i really like it :)

mood:

∞

i just realised that my blog's layout is quite yeng. reminds me of infinity and macam ada sikit 3D effect. hehehe :B

i'm now starting my one week break from exams and yes, i get to sleep. haven't been getting enough sleep for the pass few days because of those subjects that i need to study to get good results so that my mom won't slaughter me and subjects that are most probably gonna help me in the future. after about one year of studying add maths, i am still waiting for someone to tell me how can add maths help me in the future.. halfway during your business meeting, your client asks you to find dy over dx or find function x or maybe the radient of the sector of the circle. i don't know. well, unless you want to be some engineer or some maths explorer. but if i wanna be those things, what am i doing in the art stream. i don't get it. someone please explain. no wait, nevermind. i need a break from all this things for now. after this break finish, accounts and add maths are going to attack me. then i'm going to attack my post exam week, week, singular. then my report card will attack me, then my mom will attack me, then my dad will attack me, and i menghadapi zaman gelap D: then i will enjoy church for the last few times, and christmas will come and new year comes and SPM, here i come.

 *sigh*

cause i still believe in destiny that you and i are meant to be

and i wish on the stars as they fall from above

cause i still believe, believe in love

♥

♔

you make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed,

sing like a bird, dizzy in my head,

spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night,

you make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe,

shine like a gold, buzz like a bee,

just the thought of you can drive me wild,

oh, you make me smile.

J

mood: 

eye to eye.

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH

this is not a .gif

mood: 

india. china. islam. goodness.

i am sure i won't be able to remember those names, especially the indian and the khalifah names. the chinese ones are easier cos my dad is obssessed with chinese history and he always watch those history shows and i watch it with him so i know some things, not some la, a few, very little. my life is so hard. there are so many things i wished i could tell my dad but i couldn't cos when i do, my dad would complain to my mom for me and then i will get scolded when he goes to work, so what's the point? but there are just some things that my mom will never understand. even i don't understand. but i just hate it so much. it's about my auntie sleeping on my bed. sounds very stupid right? no, it is not stupid  at all. i am very angry already. it's a bit too much for me to handle. i just wished i was a little more like God but i'm just not! awwsh!

 first, she get extremely sick, stays at the hospital, makes me go to hospital with my auntie at 5pm every saturday and sunday,, i don't mind cos it makes my mom happy and it has nothing to do with me, i just go there. then, she comes back, stays at her own house, okaylah, i thought. seriously, i thought. but no, she comes to my house every single day and my mom or auntie have to fetch her to do her dialysis 3 times a week and my mom have to cook for her everyday. have to buy some extremely expensive kuali and oil and salt and bihun andmany more stuff. she already use a lot of money and they are all my family's money like what? that, okay fine, i tahan. then she sleeps on the couch like 24/7 when she is suppose to do some exercise. when my mom comes down or comes back only she faster put her hands up and pretend to exercise. i cannot tahan her laziness at all.

sleep on the couch i don't care la, take over the couch la, but no, she goes upstairs and sleeps on my bed, i hate it when people sleeps on my bed, if they're my friends, i don't mind, my mom, i don't mind, my this godmother auntie also nvm, cos i'm close with them and i see them everyday but her, i'm not even close with her and i get very very irritated by her lame jokes. and now she's sleeping on my bed and i'm so angry, my mom is pissed at me being angry and i can't tell my dad about it, erghgh, no one understands what i feel. they just keep saying, she's not sick la, she;s your auntie la, nevermind what. no, it's not nevermind, it's me. i'm born this way. i don't even like it if some of my cousins sleep on my bed, some nevermind, cos he's my kaigor. well, i only let 1 of my cousins sleep la actually. now, i'm gonna go check if she's still sleeping on my bed. ERHGHGHGHSSHEESHDSHEHSFDKSDGUHOSRVH;ETNOYHUB O;W4VI5UO

mood: 

books. exam. books.

well, exam fever's up. not like an exam fever where you drown in your books and history but i'm literally having fever, all the time. not really high temperature but i get headache like once a day. i'm watching glee now to release little stress and sleeping early. like now. wish me luck in my exam next week, good night :)

mood: 

meh-heh.

i'm extremely bored right now. well, not exactly bored but just very D: cos i'm not done with my accounts folio yet and i am kinda stuck a little la, actually i'm not stuck at all, i'm just very lazy and D: to go finish it. exam's in a week and i don't have much time. and my mom banned me from going to church for 4 week aand this is just the 1st week. what am i to do? i should study really hardly and get the best results i have every gotten. sound so impossible. LOL now, to let myself feel a little better [i think] i shall share some stuff that have been stuck in my downloads for a few months now.

this is my church fellowship's logo. ahh, so proud :)

this is my school's logo. as proud :)

this is from tumblr. it's so cute i had to save it :B

this is from tumblr too. it's friggin' cute!

this is also very pretty, reminds me of the you belong with me music video but prettier :}

now, i have to go finish up my accounts folio :)

mood: 

DANIEL PADILLA ♥

so good looking can die. he's a filipino. there's an award thing going on now and people are suppose to vote for their favourite artist. so he was nominated for the Pop Cutie. go vote for him, just click daniel padilla, vote, return to this poll, daniel padilla and vote some more. until the computer stops you. please, he's almost there, like seriously, almost. 

GO VOTE FOR DANIEL PADILLA @ http://asap.abs-cbn.com/poll.html#pd_a_5552351

THANKS ;)

mood: 

*yawn*

i'm extremely tired right now, i don't have much to do right now cos i don't really know what to do. i have decided to finish it during the weekends and pass up on monday. people said that encik harri will minus 4 marks, well, better than nothing. i slept at 2 last night and today i'll be sleeping late summor. tomorrow, when i come home from school i'll have tuition until 5, so stress. come home, need to finish all this crap stuff and study sejarah. argg, my sejarah is so suck. Y U NO get 100 marks like shi lin leh? oh wellzzzz

yawn.. my mom don't let me go to church for the whole october so how? can't go loh, been to fellowship for 2 years and i've never been to their election for even once. i'll probably be skipping the election next year and i will be enjoying my KMIF election for the first time and also the last. i hope that God is actually giving me time since i have always prayed for more. i shall make use of all this extra time to study. go study sejarah kao kao. shaun just started to study sejarah, jaime too. suit yee shauqi and kar yan study long time already la. suit yee's book is like highlighter everywhere, shauqi just needs to glance through, karyan is making her own notes. WTH man?! i'm s=trying to study here but nothing seems to stay in my head.

well, i'm currently waiting for jaime's tuition teacher to send her the files. the teacher's phone is off. CURSES. now i don't even know if i can copy other folios, if jaime's one got, then got lah, if no, i do myself and pass up on monday lah, sheeeesh, friggin' tired. i miss taiwan weyh, like seriously. my eyes can barely open right now. next year is coming soon, idk if i can go to fellowship but i think i can, in a way, i just think so. well, wish me the best of all blessing :)

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