india. china. islam. goodness.

i am sure i won't be able to remember those names, especially the indian and the khalifah names. the chinese ones are easier cos my dad is obssessed with chinese history and he always watch those history shows and i watch it with him so i know some things, not some la, a few, very little. my life is so hard. there are so many things i wished i could tell my dad but i couldn't cos when i do, my dad would complain to my mom for me and then i will get scolded when he goes to work, so what's the point? but there are just some things that my mom will never understand. even i don't understand. but i just hate it so much. it's about my auntie sleeping on my bed. sounds very stupid right? no, it is not stupid  at all. i am very angry already. it's a bit too much for me to handle. i just wished i was a little more like God but i'm just not! awwsh!

 first, she get extremely sick, stays at the hospital, makes me go to hospital with my auntie at 5pm every saturday and sunday,, i don't mind cos it makes my mom happy and it has nothing to do with me, i just go there. then, she comes back, stays at her own house, okaylah, i thought. seriously, i thought. but no, she comes to my house every single day and my mom or auntie have to fetch her to do her dialysis 3 times a week and my mom have to cook for her everyday. have to buy some extremely expensive kuali and oil and salt and bihun andmany more stuff. she already use a lot of money and they are all my family's money like what? that, okay fine, i tahan. then she sleeps on the couch like 24/7 when she is suppose to do some exercise. when my mom comes down or comes back only she faster put her hands up and pretend to exercise. i cannot tahan her laziness at all.

sleep on the couch i don't care la, take over the couch la, but no, she goes upstairs and sleeps on my bed, i hate it when people sleeps on my bed, if they're my friends, i don't mind, my mom, i don't mind, my this godmother auntie also nvm, cos i'm close with them and i see them everyday but her, i'm not even close with her and i get very very irritated by her lame jokes. and now she's sleeping on my bed and i'm so angry, my mom is pissed at me being angry and i can't tell my dad about it, erghgh, no one understands what i feel. they just keep saying, she's not sick la, she;s your auntie la, nevermind what. no, it's not nevermind, it's me. i'm born this way. i don't even like it if some of my cousins sleep on my bed, some nevermind, cos he's my kaigor. well, i only let 1 of my cousins sleep la actually. now, i'm gonna go check if she's still sleeping on my bed. ERHGHGHGHSSHEESHDSHEHSFDKSDGUHOSRVH;ETNOYHUB O;W4VI5UO

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