death.

Rain poured like never before. Lightning struck right in my face. It rained as if it was never going to stop. Death felt so near. Just as I went telling my friends it was doom's day and the end of the world, I felt as if another voice was in my head talking to me. Once I heard what it said, I felt so bad about thinking what I thought. Not having faith in God, thinking stupid things. I was just scared, but that is not an excuse. I'm really sorry. I beg for forgiveness and I am sure God will forgive as He loves all of us so much. Thank you for being there talking to me and nudging me when I do something wrong without myself realizing. You're amazing :)

Today I went to my teacher's house for tuition. She adopted her daughter and I saw her for the first time today. She says that her daughter looks like her husband. I'm not sure about that as I have not seen her husband before. They don't look alike though. Her daughter is really cute and she's really smart, too! I suddenly had the urge to ask her and I did, is she going to tell her that she is adopted. My teacher said yes. I asked her when. She said just when she understands the adoption concept. She says that it will be easier to accept it if she's younger. If she tells her at our age now, I think she would go crazy and start cutting herself. I don't know, just guessing.

She breasts feeded her herself, with the help of some hormones injection. Even though she is not her real daughter, she treats and loves her like her own child, like God, in a way. She has been trying to get a baby for years but I think it didn't work so she decided to adopt. She wants a baby so badly that she can love someone else's child and some people wants to get rid of their baby so badly she can just abandon the child in the dumpster. If the child ever hear about where he/she was found, he would be so hurt, so not wanted. Sad child.

Right now, I am so tired and my eyes are all red like really really red. I still have to shower. I'm still in my uniform. Too much tuition in a day, will cancel the history tuition soon. Hopefully, my mom would let. (fingers crossed)

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daniel padilla ♥

until now, i still have no idea how to pronouce his name and i have probably given up because it's not like my mom would let me go all the way to phillipines just to see him. she says that country is dangerous. that may be true so i shall not take the risk. malaysia is totally safe, so daniel, you shall come here. you can stay as long as you want. there's a lot of earthquake nowadays so stay here. it's safe :) he is so so so so so good looking but i don't know if he has a girlfriend. probably kathryn i guess. she's extremely pretty. they look good together :)

this is his latest photoshoot photos, it's okay, he's cute :)

there! this is Kathryn. damn pretty right? i think they're together. at least i hope they are. shes really pretty.

look like our school uniform right? :D

so daim pretty ah she..i jealous :( hah, lol. i not good enough to even be jealous.

he's good looking here, but..:/

i still like this one best! i really like this one very much :) lynxie found this so i just saved it last time, thanks lynxie. this photo of him is really yeng. i've posted this photo of him before in the previous post about him and i saw it just now again so i decided to post it again 'cause its so good looking :) i actually got tired of him for a while but i went back to tumblr just now and i saw photos of him and that 'wahhh..so good looking ah, how can someone's face be so perfect?' feeling just comes back. oh well, another post about Daniel Padilla. handsome right? :D

while on facebook, i found this picture i like :)

nice, kan?

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pottermore.

it has been a while. well, it has always been a while. i think i've been using iphone so much that i use the double space and expect a full-stop to appear. LOL. it has been a long time since i used my computer and blogged. i need some time to get used to it again. so, please excuse me :)

last month, when i was at my cousin's house warming party, i saw something that i've seen before, maybe also experienced before but i hope not, but probably yes. i saw this bunch of kids, they were playing together and suddenly this boy was scolding them like i will get my robot here and beat all of you up! and they were like, come la! scared ah? and the kids went up stairs to play and left the little boy alone. after a while, they came down. the little boy built his own courage and offered his toy to the bunch of kids. the kids didn't want it. they just walked away, totally ignoring him. well, of course he was sad. he sat down and played with his toy alone, my niece was playing with my phone and he wanted to join, i let la. and my niece also wanted to whole phone to himself. he went and find the kids again, he offered to play and they didn't really want to play with him and they were even talking bad about him behind his back. they accepted his request and played hide-and-seek with him. they made him the seeker. while he was counting, they ran out and left him thinking they were still in the house. sad kid.

all he wanted was to have some friends on his side. to have a little fun. to get to play like the other kids. to have fun like the other kids. he just wants to make a friend. watching the whole just makes me so sad. it's so saddening. kids these days. no human should be treated like that. everyone is beautiful.

last saturday, my schoolmate, Lee Sai Men, his dad passed away. he had a heart attack. i did not expect anything like that at all. his dad was still young. he was still fine i guess. and suddenly, he passed away. so, like what people always says, cherish the poeple we have now, we will not know if we will still have them even after this second. life is always unexpected. cherish everyone we have now, even if the ones that are not so important now. we never know if they will be important in the future. before its too late, yknow. family especially. they can be really annoying at times but they are still your family, you can't stay angry at them forever, and for those who take advantage of your family, don't do it. if you have a brain, you will regret, if you don't, then you don't have a brain.

a few days before, i made pottermore. pottermore is a website where potter fans can see the inside of hogwarts and we get to get experience as a hogwarts students. you get to get a wand and get sorted into a house by the sorting hat. it's quite fun i think but it's kind of boring in the beginning. you guys should try as it is finally open for register now. it's now or never. kindof. my friends are all starting to study for SPM and i think it's about time i start too. i'm not making much progress too. hopefully, in time to get an okay result for mid-term. i've made a little effort into trying to focus a little more on my studies, giving a little more time for me to have no choice but study. i deleted the 9gag app from my phone and i'm not watching AOD anymore. skipping them for a few months wouldn't hurt. some good results would be much more worth it. add oil, me. you can do it :)

after posting all this, seems like the period of time that i havent blogged, has been pretty productive :) way to go, me. thanks, God :) i feel Your blessings. oh,oh! and i met yingtyng! she's joseph's girlfriend! quite pretty, quite tall, he's so lucky.

don't under estimate the things that i can do

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