paint

remember those days when we go on the computer just to play with paint? well, those days are definitely over. it is really annoying to see people who are almost 30 scrolling up and down on their facebook timeline. come on, get a life, work. i'm referring to my cousin of course. even i'm not like that. he doesn't have a job, he have a baby on the way and you know what? he's proud of it. all he know is manjakan his mom and complain. he is currently snoring behind me now. well, if you have to see these kind of people everyday, who would not be pissed? i think everyone would. so now i think my house is not a very nice homey condition to live in. i'm getting angrier and angrier now. stop, stop. this is why i'm making a new room for myself. i am planning to lock myself in there whenever he comes. or maybe for the rest of my life. nahh, i need to go to school, gain more knowledge and experience and have a future.

i was googling about bone cracking. if you know me really well, you would know that i have bones that will never stop cracking. i go up the stairs, every step i take you can hear a crack. i wake up, my whole body can crack. i back bones, my shoulder, my fingers, my wrists, my neck, my knees, my toes, my ankles. last time, you could even hear cracks when i was just turning my hips. my mother thinks that i have a problem and maybe i need to see a bone specialist, i insisted that i don't have a problem, but out of curiosity just now, i googled it. i found something that explains a lot. i don't mean a lot of words but explain a lot of funny things about me, not that i have some sickness, i guess it's normal, it doesn't say that these are symptoms to some disease. well, i wanted to print screen it and put it here but i can't so i googled how. then i discovered that i have to past it in paint and save it. it was too blur so for get it

but you guys should go to the paint again. it is like very nice now, compared to what we had last time. we only had the bucket paint which paints the whole wall, the air brush and a normal brush. now their brush is like a real brush, it fades as if it ran out of paint. so i played along, here are some of my signature i drew.

the thick brush.

the classic pen.

the fine brush.

the air brush. the one that used to fail all my drawings and still the same.

Le Marker.

they even have crayon.

the kids nowadays are surrounded with technology, why would they even care about paint. paint used to be my favourite game. kids touching their iPads in the shopping centres and ipod etc. etc. no offence to the parents nowadays but i think thats called spoiling your kids, it's not counted as letting them experience at a young age and let them learn faster. i think it's just not good. too much harmful rays at a young age is not good at all. 

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seafood

smell of seafood stuck in my fingers, no matter how many times i wash it, it is still there, stubborn smell. if you want to see what seafood i've cooked, go to my twitter @soumun21 and look for a tweet that says i made this! most of it. i can't believe it [some emoji of sea creatures or you may see boxes] it's pretty good for a starter like me. that proves that some last minute concentration on the food network asia works. i'm pretty proud. i shall cook more often but eat less. this holiday has been giving me nothing but fats. i'm so fat now that i can't stop complaining. well, for some people who just lost a lot of weight, like what my dear Jaime would say, bangga ah.

much love :)

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life.

life is hard. the starting steps were the most enjoyable and the most fun. we didn't have to think. we didn't have to make tough decisions. we didn't have to worry. we didn't have to care. we just did whatever our hearts told us to. teenager life is weird. this level of our lives doesn't quite make sense. for the past few days, i have been having problems. moodiness and insomnia. i can't fall asleep until it's after 2am. i feel like i want to cry when i can't. so many things. frustrates.sometimes i don't understand why we have to go through this stage of life. well, people do say when we breakthrough the tough ones, the ones coming in the future would be much easier. i shall believe that it is true. 

everytime something happens, i'll tell myself, okay, i have to blog about this. no, it never happens, and now that i'm blogging because boredom is overtaking more than half of me already, i've to pour out to my blog. to be living as a pre high school graduate, there are many things to think about. college. car license. friend who would be leaving next year. making much more memories to remember before it's all over, before we all turn into butterflies, folios, parents, everything. right now, i'm thinking about my college. MCKL? or IACT? MCKL is not bad, good environment and i have friends there. IACT allows me to take foundation for event management. there will be training. i have a feeling i'll still take MCKL in the end. i can work or explore in some event management companies. A-levels allows me to change my mind. i wouldn't have time for a job. unless it is a job which is up to me. we'll see. i hope to see you in my future.

one last thing, saying sorry for many many times doesn't help. if you continue to make that mistake when you're conscious about it, sorry, apologize not excepted. saying things like you already know your mistakes, nahh, i won't take it in anymore. it's like slapping someone and apologizing and slapping them again and you are conscious. you can also see it as committing crime and asking God to forgive you and committing crime again and asking God to forgive you again. and here i remember something. i will forgive you everytime you apologize, if you make the mistake again, it is not my problem, it was your choice. i want to be more like God, well, i'm not even close. but He wants us to forgive and love all our neighbors and enemies. something like that. i can't remember clearly.

i'm sorry, so here are some pictures

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