life.

life is hard. the starting steps were the most enjoyable and the most fun. we didn't have to think. we didn't have to make tough decisions. we didn't have to worry. we didn't have to care. we just did whatever our hearts told us to. teenager life is weird. this level of our lives doesn't quite make sense. for the past few days, i have been having problems. moodiness and insomnia. i can't fall asleep until it's after 2am. i feel like i want to cry when i can't. so many things. frustrates.sometimes i don't understand why we have to go through this stage of life. well, people do say when we breakthrough the tough ones, the ones coming in the future would be much easier. i shall believe that it is true. 

everytime something happens, i'll tell myself, okay, i have to blog about this. no, it never happens, and now that i'm blogging because boredom is overtaking more than half of me already, i've to pour out to my blog. to be living as a pre high school graduate, there are many things to think about. college. car license. friend who would be leaving next year. making much more memories to remember before it's all over, before we all turn into butterflies, folios, parents, everything. right now, i'm thinking about my college. MCKL? or IACT? MCKL is not bad, good environment and i have friends there. IACT allows me to take foundation for event management. there will be training. i have a feeling i'll still take MCKL in the end. i can work or explore in some event management companies. A-levels allows me to change my mind. i wouldn't have time for a job. unless it is a job which is up to me. we'll see. i hope to see you in my future.

one last thing, saying sorry for many many times doesn't help. if you continue to make that mistake when you're conscious about it, sorry, apologize not excepted. saying things like you already know your mistakes, nahh, i won't take it in anymore. it's like slapping someone and apologizing and slapping them again and you are conscious. you can also see it as committing crime and asking God to forgive you and committing crime again and asking God to forgive you again. and here i remember something. i will forgive you everytime you apologize, if you make the mistake again, it is not my problem, it was your choice. i want to be more like God, well, i'm not even close. but He wants us to forgive and love all our neighbors and enemies. something like that. i can't remember clearly.

i'm sorry, so here are some pictures

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