some things

Trust God at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge

- Psalm 62:8

there are some things in life which can make us smile without putting in any effort. there are also some things that could even make us feel better even when they put in the most effort. for instance, my dog, she makes me smile by just sitting down, stare at me and walk away. does she care? no. but she still puts a smile on my face every single day. who knows why. but for God, so many things i've done, good ones, sinful ones, He's still there for me, every single day. 

He lends me His ears when i need someone to talk to,

He makes a path for me when there's no place for me to go to,

He gives me strength when i feel exhausted,

He gives me wisdom when i'm puzzled,

He gives me light when i couldn't see,

He looks after me when i'm not me,

He gives me warmth when i'm freezing,

He gives me hope when i couldn't find a sign of living,

He lets me trust Him when trust seems to be the hardest thing,

He gives me faith when i find it hard to believe.

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i just feel so blessed. blessed in every single way. i might not eat enough food sometimes, but the kids suffering in some country might have no food for months. i might sweat like a mad cow and complaining about it, but the people is some countries are suffering from a drought. i complain about being fat, some african have no choice but to be skinny because they have no food. i hate my eyes for being short-sighted, but some people can even see the colours of the world. i complain about my neighbours having karaoke at home being too noisy, some people haven't even heard their own voice. i think my house is small, but some people's houses is the size of my room or even worse, homeless. i complain about the service at my school, some don't even have a school to go to. i complain for not being able to sing well, some people can't even say their own name. i feel bad about my ability in sports, some people haven't even stand on their own feet before.

thinking of these things, how can i feel bad anymore? how can you feel bad after reading this? really, for a moment, you might think you would be happy for the rest of your life, but trust me, somehow, you will still feel bad and complain halfway. that's probably a law for being human. it's hard, but not impossible. like another law, teenagers must be lazy. it's natural. it's a must. but i see many teenager bury themselves in books and helping their moms with house chores. i have no ides how they do that. i can't even get myself up to go walk my dog even after i promised her. that's how life is, but some where in the middle we will all change. walk our own paths. separating. 

in the future, we might have even more friends that we have now, but the friends now is the ones that can make you cry tears of joy with the tiniest bit of things they say, they are the ones that are with you when you're going throughh your hardest moments and the happiest. the period of life when you don't have to care about anything at all and just be young, wild and free. there was one evening when i suddenly thought why do they always say the high school life is the best, and when i think about it, it's true. it's not whats about it thats the best, it's the things in it. the people, the joy, the memories. having all these people in my life, i will never forget, i feel so blessed for having you guys in it. thank you for being there for me, every moment, every where. together watching fireworks at yuejen's guest room's balcony. going out and eat like the hungriest people. being shy when we have to have dinner at her house. go out for tea and supper like never before. talk like girls, laugh like pirates. i don't know how i thought of the pirate thing. laugh like pirates, huh? let's try that some time ;)

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