death.

Rain poured like never before. Lightning struck right in my face. It rained as if it was never going to stop. Death felt so near. Just as I went telling my friends it was doom's day and the end of the world, I felt as if another voice was in my head talking to me. Once I heard what it said, I felt so bad about thinking what I thought. Not having faith in God, thinking stupid things. I was just scared, but that is not an excuse. I'm really sorry. I beg for forgiveness and I am sure God will forgive as He loves all of us so much. Thank you for being there talking to me and nudging me when I do something wrong without myself realizing. You're amazing :)

Today I went to my teacher's house for tuition. She adopted her daughter and I saw her for the first time today. She says that her daughter looks like her husband. I'm not sure about that as I have not seen her husband before. They don't look alike though. Her daughter is really cute and she's really smart, too! I suddenly had the urge to ask her and I did, is she going to tell her that she is adopted. My teacher said yes. I asked her when. She said just when she understands the adoption concept. She says that it will be easier to accept it if she's younger. If she tells her at our age now, I think she would go crazy and start cutting herself. I don't know, just guessing.

She breasts feeded her herself, with the help of some hormones injection. Even though she is not her real daughter, she treats and loves her like her own child, like God, in a way. She has been trying to get a baby for years but I think it didn't work so she decided to adopt. She wants a baby so badly that she can love someone else's child and some people wants to get rid of their baby so badly she can just abandon the child in the dumpster. If the child ever hear about where he/she was found, he would be so hurt, so not wanted. Sad child.

Right now, I am so tired and my eyes are all red like really really red. I still have to shower. I'm still in my uniform. Too much tuition in a day, will cancel the history tuition soon. Hopefully, my mom would let. (fingers crossed)

mood:

daniel padilla ♥

until now, i still have no idea how to pronouce his name and i have probably given up because it's not like my mom would let me go all the way to phillipines just to see him. she says that country is dangerous. that may be true so i shall not take the risk. malaysia is totally safe, so daniel, you shall come here. you can stay as long as you want. there's a lot of earthquake nowadays so stay here. it's safe :) he is so so so so so good looking but i don't know if he has a girlfriend. probably kathryn i guess. she's extremely pretty. they look good together :)

this is his latest photoshoot photos, it's okay, he's cute :)

there! this is Kathryn. damn pretty right? i think they're together. at least i hope they are. shes really pretty.

look like our school uniform right? :D

so daim pretty ah she..i jealous :( hah, lol. i not good enough to even be jealous.

he's good looking here, but..:/

i still like this one best! i really like this one very much :) lynxie found this so i just saved it last time, thanks lynxie. this photo of him is really yeng. i've posted this photo of him before in the previous post about him and i saw it just now again so i decided to post it again 'cause its so good looking :) i actually got tired of him for a while but i went back to tumblr just now and i saw photos of him and that 'wahhh..so good looking ah, how can someone's face be so perfect?' feeling just comes back. oh well, another post about Daniel Padilla. handsome right? :D

while on facebook, i found this picture i like :)

nice, kan?

mood:

pottermore.

it has been a while. well, it has always been a while. i think i've been using iphone so much that i use the double space and expect a full-stop to appear. LOL. it has been a long time since i used my computer and blogged. i need some time to get used to it again. so, please excuse me :)

last month, when i was at my cousin's house warming party, i saw something that i've seen before, maybe also experienced before but i hope not, but probably yes. i saw this bunch of kids, they were playing together and suddenly this boy was scolding them like i will get my robot here and beat all of you up! and they were like, come la! scared ah? and the kids went up stairs to play and left the little boy alone. after a while, they came down. the little boy built his own courage and offered his toy to the bunch of kids. the kids didn't want it. they just walked away, totally ignoring him. well, of course he was sad. he sat down and played with his toy alone, my niece was playing with my phone and he wanted to join, i let la. and my niece also wanted to whole phone to himself. he went and find the kids again, he offered to play and they didn't really want to play with him and they were even talking bad about him behind his back. they accepted his request and played hide-and-seek with him. they made him the seeker. while he was counting, they ran out and left him thinking they were still in the house. sad kid.

all he wanted was to have some friends on his side. to have a little fun. to get to play like the other kids. to have fun like the other kids. he just wants to make a friend. watching the whole just makes me so sad. it's so saddening. kids these days. no human should be treated like that. everyone is beautiful.

last saturday, my schoolmate, Lee Sai Men, his dad passed away. he had a heart attack. i did not expect anything like that at all. his dad was still young. he was still fine i guess. and suddenly, he passed away. so, like what people always says, cherish the poeple we have now, we will not know if we will still have them even after this second. life is always unexpected. cherish everyone we have now, even if the ones that are not so important now. we never know if they will be important in the future. before its too late, yknow. family especially. they can be really annoying at times but they are still your family, you can't stay angry at them forever, and for those who take advantage of your family, don't do it. if you have a brain, you will regret, if you don't, then you don't have a brain.

a few days before, i made pottermore. pottermore is a website where potter fans can see the inside of hogwarts and we get to get experience as a hogwarts students. you get to get a wand and get sorted into a house by the sorting hat. it's quite fun i think but it's kind of boring in the beginning. you guys should try as it is finally open for register now. it's now or never. kindof. my friends are all starting to study for SPM and i think it's about time i start too. i'm not making much progress too. hopefully, in time to get an okay result for mid-term. i've made a little effort into trying to focus a little more on my studies, giving a little more time for me to have no choice but study. i deleted the 9gag app from my phone and i'm not watching AOD anymore. skipping them for a few months wouldn't hurt. some good results would be much more worth it. add oil, me. you can do it :)

after posting all this, seems like the period of time that i havent blogged, has been pretty productive :) way to go, me. thanks, God :) i feel Your blessings. oh,oh! and i met yingtyng! she's joseph's girlfriend! quite pretty, quite tall, he's so lucky.

don't under estimate the things that i can do

mood: 

nothing great ever came that easy

i always got to do most of the things i wanted. well, except for this camp. i was really greatful when like a few weeks before the camp, i didn't have to urge to go at all. i thought that i wouldn't feel anything for this camp. as i said, i thought. yesterday was the first day of camp. i was quite sad when i heard that all their phone will be confiscated. i called qian yong last night and i heard happy noises over the phone. i was really happy and sad at the same time. that feeling. i wanted to join them. forget about this whole world and go there to escape the world for a while. but i know that is not possible. it's impossibruu. they were playing ping pong. i can just picture the joy.

how nice would it be if life is not about problems? how nice would it be if life would just be soft, easy, fun and entertaining? many people say that. it's true. it would be nice, sometimes. ooooo, sometimes. [lol, this song is everywhere] try to picture a life with no problems at all. a life with no risk to take. a safe life that would also lead to no excitement. zero creativity probably. and paris hiltons everywhere. this kind of life? i don't want it. it's boring. this world would just be some sakai world with no hope. this dull little world with no colours. it wouldn't be perfect. it'll be boring. boredom will rule Earth. sometimes, problems are the things that makes our lives a little more interesting. giving us stress and finally succeeding. like trying to solve an extreme add maths question and finally got the right answer, that feeling. priceless. some problems give you pain, there might not be that little something that's going to give you 'that feeling' in the end but that's when we will learn to appreciate things we see now. if you know what i mean.

survive today

&

tomorrow will be better

survive tomorrow

&

the day after will be even better

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly

i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky

and i'll make a wish, take a chance

make a change and breakaway

out of the darkness and into the sun

but i won't forget all the ones that i loved

i'll take a risk, take a chance

make a change and

breakaway

mood:

some things

Trust God at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge

- Psalm 62:8

there are some things in life which can make us smile without putting in any effort. there are also some things that could even make us feel better even when they put in the most effort. for instance, my dog, she makes me smile by just sitting down, stare at me and walk away. does she care? no. but she still puts a smile on my face every single day. who knows why. but for God, so many things i've done, good ones, sinful ones, He's still there for me, every single day. 

He lends me His ears when i need someone to talk to,

He makes a path for me when there's no place for me to go to,

He gives me strength when i feel exhausted,

He gives me wisdom when i'm puzzled,

He gives me light when i couldn't see,

He looks after me when i'm not me,

He gives me warmth when i'm freezing,

He gives me hope when i couldn't find a sign of living,

He lets me trust Him when trust seems to be the hardest thing,

He gives me faith when i find it hard to believe.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i just feel so blessed. blessed in every single way. i might not eat enough food sometimes, but the kids suffering in some country might have no food for months. i might sweat like a mad cow and complaining about it, but the people is some countries are suffering from a drought. i complain about being fat, some african have no choice but to be skinny because they have no food. i hate my eyes for being short-sighted, but some people can even see the colours of the world. i complain about my neighbours having karaoke at home being too noisy, some people haven't even heard their own voice. i think my house is small, but some people's houses is the size of my room or even worse, homeless. i complain about the service at my school, some don't even have a school to go to. i complain for not being able to sing well, some people can't even say their own name. i feel bad about my ability in sports, some people haven't even stand on their own feet before.

thinking of these things, how can i feel bad anymore? how can you feel bad after reading this? really, for a moment, you might think you would be happy for the rest of your life, but trust me, somehow, you will still feel bad and complain halfway. that's probably a law for being human. it's hard, but not impossible. like another law, teenagers must be lazy. it's natural. it's a must. but i see many teenager bury themselves in books and helping their moms with house chores. i have no ides how they do that. i can't even get myself up to go walk my dog even after i promised her. that's how life is, but some where in the middle we will all change. walk our own paths. separating. 

in the future, we might have even more friends that we have now, but the friends now is the ones that can make you cry tears of joy with the tiniest bit of things they say, they are the ones that are with you when you're going throughh your hardest moments and the happiest. the period of life when you don't have to care about anything at all and just be young, wild and free. there was one evening when i suddenly thought why do they always say the high school life is the best, and when i think about it, it's true. it's not whats about it thats the best, it's the things in it. the people, the joy, the memories. having all these people in my life, i will never forget, i feel so blessed for having you guys in it. thank you for being there for me, every moment, every where. together watching fireworks at yuejen's guest room's balcony. going out and eat like the hungriest people. being shy when we have to have dinner at her house. go out for tea and supper like never before. talk like girls, laugh like pirates. i don't know how i thought of the pirate thing. laugh like pirates, huh? let's try that some time ;)

mood: 

nuffnang

well, since the title is nuffnang so eventually, the things i'm about to say is about nuffnang. i actually have no idea what nuffnang is and i still don't know what it is. i'm not even sure if its noofnaang or nafneng. but, whatever. i was just done with my daily bread that i have to post once every 3 weeks but i was never on time, not even once. well, as you can see, friday is a really busy day for me, quite a miserable day, but En.Harri's class is quite fun. i am always fully booked on Fridays by tuition and school. well, i'm very popular on Fridays. i havent been  blogging for quite some time already. well, 1) my laziness 2) time management. still not quite good at it yet. okay now, let's see, recently, jaime and i have been using each other's twitter accounts. it was sick and dirty. therefore, derek and amirul decided to call us pornstars. oh well. i can't stop them. well, they are derek and amirul. conclusion: the more you try to stop them, the more they will call you names. report done!

speaking of science, i went out with elvina and joseph on one day. joseph and i tried to explain to elvina the correct way of holding chopsticks using science. the piece of chopstick which is suppose stay is the constant variable while the one that moves to pick things up is the manipulated variable, so therefore, the things being picked up is the responding variable. had to do that, what to do. they're both science people and especially elvina. pure science. she wants to study med. science everywhere! well, its 1:40am now. i have got to go church tomorrow. so, good night, folks!

so don't you worry

your pretty little mind

people throw rocks

at things that shine

and life makes love look hard

the stakes are high

the water's rough

but this love is

ours

mood: 

2012

it's a new year. a brand new one but i still continue things from last year, i'm just getting better. so let me tell you a little about my 2012.

no fellowship

turning 17

SPM

car licence

the last days of high school

i just hope i can live it through. there's nothing i can do about any of it except for my car licence, i can choose to not get it but i chose to get it so yeah. it's a start of a new year and january has just flown by. lyn xie left for new zealand on the first day of chinese new year. oh that girl. and chaw miin miin left for aussie yesterday. oh that girl, too. 

well, it's a new year. we all have plans for ourselves i believe,

so, i wish you all the best :)

i'm unusual

not so typical

way too smart to be waiting around

tai chi practices

snow board champion

i might even fix that flat on your car

i might even be a

rock star

♔

mood: 

hey, soul sister.

roses are red,

violets are blue,

AVADA KEDAVRA,

i love you.

i love you.

mood: 

trust God.

Look back and thank God. 

Look forward and trust God.

Look around and serve God.

Look within and find God.

i found this amazing Christian book which has inspired me so much. it was totally amazing when you read it, it makes you feel God, makes you feel that He's there. it's just amazing. well, last night, i went for a basketball game with my church friends and it was amazing. i got a whole lot damn better. i was late because i went for my family dinner so i only played 2 games. it was an indoor court so it was rather small, but i shot at least 1 or 2 goals per game. not bad right? :D i'm really looking forward to the next game, since i got so much better. i think they're going to play during camp but even if they're not, i bet we're gonna have so much fun. i'm so excited. christmas is getting nearer and nearer and i'm even more excited for that! it's like the best time of the year! i think i'm involved in the play for the children christmas night thingy, playing myself. i didn't know what peter meant but he said i was gonna play me. so yeah. i'm starting work tomorrow so i'd better hit the sack now, so, nitey-nite, don't let the bed bugs bite ;)

mood:

you know what?

i found out a lot of things today. not actually a lot, but yeah, i found out something today. i checked my stats for my blog just now because i noticed that the last time i saw the counter thingy, it was 1603, i accidentally saw it again just now and it was like 1800. i was lilke 2 days and 200 views? nowayman. when did i get that popular? hahahaha :D i checked my stats and yesterday, my blog was viewed 96 times, then it was viewed 106 times, today, it was viewed 66 times. wow. seriously wow. oh!oh! and you know my post about how cool and handsome Daniel Padilla is? that post was viewed 494 times. my blog is like famous. but there's one thing i don't quite understand, since my blog was viewed so many times a day, my followers list never seems to add itself. well, maybe they just read for fun lah. or maybe someone just keep refreshing when they get to my blog. hahahahhahaaha LOL. oh well then.

i went back to my first few posts in this blog to read, it was really really REALLY old. i kindof forgot how i used to blog last time so yeah. i was colourful. hehehehe :P seriously, COLOURFUL. but ohwell, i'm not actually in the mood to be in a good mood right now. i'm really scared. yesterday, when i was asked if i want to go to church [ofcourse i do] i went and told my mom that i might be going to church later but i won't go if my homework is not done, well, she asnwered me, go so many times for what? since you won't be going anymore anyway. that feeling was like being stabbed from behind, not like i have felt the feeling of being stabbed. and this morning, i was suppose to follow my mom to see my aunt. well, i'm going out with my mom so, obviously, i'll think that she's gonna wake me up. so i didn't set an alarm. i woke up, she's not in her room, so i thought she went for a walk cause she usually brings ah miiu along when she goes out. then at 10:00am she came home and said that i didn't even wake up and she've done so many things already and i sekarang baru wake up. and she said, if it was some church activity, i would've set an alarm to wake myself and get ready. that seriously doesn't make sense. you are my mom. i thought you could have woke me up. going to church is different. i carpool. so of course i would get ready and wait for them. it's good enough for them to be okay to fetch me.

she just makes me so sad. it's like she don't care about me at all. well, of course i know she cares about me but it seems to me that she doesn't care if i'm happy. to me, it's like she doesn't want me to be happy at all. well, all i can do now is, pray and wait for God :) there's no point fighting with her anymore. she doesn't listen anyway. now, i shall think of what makes me feel happy. i'm going to ou tomorrow, isn't that happy? although i'm taking a cab to church :( but that's alright. i'm going to church, that's the point. but i can't help thinking that it would be my last few times to be at church, feeling satisfied. i can't actually imagine it or believe it. i'll miss those monkeys. but most of all, i miss spending time with those people who loves God too ;) my mom is starting the heart to heart fight thing again. we don't have to talk to each other, but we're fighting in the inside. eye contact, everything, it's like war at home. but the good thing is, i'm starting work on this coming Monday, so yes, i feel so lucky. get to spend more time with my church friends although we couldn't talk. i'll definitely miss the fun times i had in the house of God. so here's a little prayer,

Dear God, Father Almighty, i know you are listening,

although i'm actually just typing but i'm praying from inside my heart,

and i know you can hear me. Lord, i feel lost right now,

like i'm in a maze i'm not familiar to. i don't know what to do.

i definitely believe in you, God, and in your miracles.

your Histories in the Bible has never failed to amaze me,

how you heal, how you save, how you care but most of all,

how you love. all these years that i've lived, God has blessed me well.

you have put me in a good family, a good place.

i have never suffered or starved.

this little prayer, is not like the other ones i've prayed before,

this is to thank you my Lord,

thank you for giving me a life to live,

thank you for putting me here,

thank you for always being there for me,

thank you for taking my sin away,

thank you for your forgiveness,

thank you for letting me know you,

thank you for blessing me,

thank you for listening to my prayers,

thank you for your

love

you are my Lord and you will always be,

thank your listening to my prayer,

in Jesus' name i pray

amen.

mood: 

i believe in God.

far far away.

sometimes, things don't go the way you think they would. more things wouldn't go the way you want them to. sometimes, things that you never have thought would happen happens. things you thought that are impossible just becomes possible. you would want things you never thought you wanted. like what tiny tower always say in their bitbook, when life gets perfect, you're in the wrong lane [or something like that]. nothing in the world is perfect but that doesn't mean that we don;t have to put effort in anything anymore. i somehow have to believe that things can be perfect somehow, they might not be in others' eyes, but as long as you think it is, it is. there is someone i know who's perfect.

GOD

she read me the note he left on her bed

snucked in her room right after she left

and put petals on the ground

her head on his shoulder they walk down the hall

that left me to wonder

will i ever fall in love and where is he now

she's with him, i'm in the back seat

know it's not right but it hurts when they're laughing

i'll never be where they are

♥

mood: 

momma please.

when i was younger, i took ballet lessons. i used to be a ballerina. well, i kinda wanna take the lessons again but that's not the point. i used to perform ballet on stage twice a year. i took the lessons for 3 years. then i had to stop it because my mother thought i would be tired from school. for the first time i performed, it was in a big group. it was a total disaster. fake smoke came out of no where. well, that is not the point either. my first ballet performance, i was out at the back because i was one of the tallest in the ballet class. i had my spotlight too of course and i was just a kid, i didn't think much. that time i was only 4. after the first performance, i had my solo performance, my teacher said i was one of the best in class. after the whole performance, my mom said that i must be one of the worst and that must be why i was put at the back and my solo was the most horrible one of all. imagine that. i was only 4, how am i suppose to understand that? i listened to my mom bring me down everytime i do something. everytime. everything.

when i said everything, i wasn't kidding. i learnt piano, too. up to grade 4. stopped because i couldn't find a good teacher. i have some bad err..things i do when i was learning piano. i don't like to practice songs that i don't think is nice. but my teacher knows me well so she chooses the nice songs for me to practice. for the exam pieces, i have no choice. everytime i practice, at home, even though i know that it is perfect, my mom would say something like, it's too slow or it's too fast or maybe wouldn't say anything. when my niece come to my house and play some random kid song, she'll say that it's so friggin' nice and i didn't play until that nice when i was that age. when i ask her if the songs i played were ever nice, she'll say it's not and my niece's one is nicer. my cousin is so compatative, she always compare me to her daughter in front of my mom. and such a show off. not that i think that she is better, of course i know that i'm better, that's obvious, just that's what my mom thinks, i'm always the stupidest and the worst in her head.

kindof the same things happen again and again.

same goes for my guitar dream.

and now, this week, it's my exam results. so far, i've gotten 2 Cs already, bad enough, i bet my mom is gonna be angry. but i really hope that it doesn't have anything to do with fellowship. i wanna attend fellowship. i allow myself to skip a few weeks when there's exam and i do not allow myself to skip it for the whole year. it feels like i'm loosing a whole part of myself. i'm not angry for failing add maths, i'm not angry that i'm stupid, i'm kindof angry that wendy cheats and beat me, but i'm scared. i'm scared that my mom will be furious at my results. i'm scared that she will call me stupid again, brainless, useless. i'm scared that she thinks that church is the thing that is making me get these bad results. this whole year, i've been trying to prove her wrong, but again and again, she leaves me speechless. sometimes i just start to think if i'm even her child. why does she have to be so mean to me? some people says she cares too much, over protective. fine, then why does she have to be mean? why does she have to make me feel like i'm worthless, like i can't do anything right? why do i have to live my life to impress her? since i was 5, i've been trying to impress my mom, only my teachers complimented me, my mom never complimented me. i'm exhausted. i need a break from all thing. 11 years of trying to impres someone that will never be impressed. i'm surprised that i had the will to live this long. LOL, just kidding, i've never thought of dying. that's stupid. i have a life to live for.

mood: 

11.11.11

do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

you can take everything i have, you can break everything i am,

like i'm made of glass, like i'm made of paper,

go on and try to tear me down, i will be rising from the ground,

like a skyscraper, like a

skyscraper

4 Arts 1 had the most awesome class party ever just now. we went to TGI FRIDAY'S to have lunch. phin shang, zhong herng and jia huei celebrated their birthday early there. it was like how En. Harri celebrate theirs. they have to stand on chairs. it was quite scary when zhong herng had to stand on the chair. oh! oh! and you know what? at TGI there, there's a man that looked like En. Harri, too! what a coincidence! then they had to use chilli sauce bottles as some microphone and they had to give a thank you speech and then they had to song a song together. they sang the school song. hahahahahha. that's not funny enough, k? they had to get a best friend up to hold a cup filled with cream and a tiny little cherry under all that cream. they had to use their mouth to dig the cream and eat the cherry. they all end up having cream mustache/moustache (aihh, forgot how to spell that word. i think it's mustache) 

after lunch, we all decided to go for karaoke. it was so friggin' yeng weyh. there were like 17 people going into RedBox and we got the biggest room they had. their biggest room wasn't very big. it was very cheap. 17 bucks per person and with like how many jugs of beverage and how many plates of food, damn there's one that's nice. too bad i only had like 1 bite of it. first, we all sing until damn bersemangat. i was so scared when they asked me to sing LOL then sudah ok.. after like 3 hours we all got tired. skipped every song. then everyone went home, not everyone la. almost everyone. i went to daiso to buy felt and everyone was like what is that? see! you buy for what?

i was suppose to go home at 6.30 but you what? i went home at 8 something. guess why? you will never be able to guess unless i told you. i told my mom i'm going to ou then to curve. i told her a few times. so i assume she knows. duh, if you told someone something a few times, you will assume they already know right? then she fetch me at ou. my phone was running out of credit. i was so scared of my mom. well, you know la, she's kinda scary. and i cried a bit when i thought of how i lived my life being worried and afraid of my mom. ahem, then, i texted yuejen to help me call my mom to tell her i'm at curve, just in case she doesn't know, cos she fetch me to ou just now. then she was angry like hell and shouted like, you go back yourself la, settle yourself, i don't care, i'm not fetching you! i'm going home! you go follow you friends la! and i was like, there is no one i can follow la, they all go home already. then she hung up. 

then i called jeff, well, he is still at curve, asked him if he can send me back, he said he will be staying at curve for a drink until after 12. wendy herself also have transport problem. weilun can't fetch. shaun is..idk, going for midnight gym. and when i thought i was alone, i was sitting on those white thing with trees calling my mom. they passed by and headed for cotton on. so i thought maybe i shall just go somewhere and eat so that i don't run into them and look like some loner. so i went to tutti frutti. after a while, i noticed a gang of like 4 people coming to eat at the table beside me. LOL, it's them. they keep following me. i sat there for like 10 minutes and they didn't notice me. hahahah, i called my cousin then i found transport. my cousin gave me a few words cos he believed what my mom said. 

oh!oh! it's 11.11.11 11:11pm! make a wish? i don't think it works but oh well. i wish that my mom won't give me the face tomorrow. done.

my mom said that i didn't tell her i went to curve. i told her a few times already la. it's either she forgot or she didn't hear. sheeeesh. she don't angry nowadays la, my auntie banyak problem wan la. but who cares now, i am having some problems now. then we talked and talked at tutti frutti, talked about driving, well, seems like they all drive before except for me, damn. then weilun and wendy left. and shaun jeff and i chat for like 20 minutes and my cousin came, thank God, cause we were running out of topic. hahahah. then my cousin listened to my version of the story. well, duh, of course i am right. but my mom will never lose wan lah, if she lose, she will make me suffer. then i came home, continue sewing. i have to finish angela's one by tomorrow, so i will not be able to help with the christmas decorations in church ;/

so it all comes to tomorrow now, i wanna go to ou weyh, so many things to buy. skin food. top shop. cotton on. and i shall check out some new stores. this is so friggin long cos it was a friggin long day. and many things happened. 11.11.11 was suppose to be a special day, well it's kinda special. 4 Arts 1 class party at TGI FRIDAY'S on a friday and my mom left me at curve. special isn't it? i hope 12.11.11 is a better day :) i can't wait to see rachel again, i wanna listen to her english!! :D

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